Anyone who has ever attempted a challenge, set a goal or had an obstacle in their life that they had to struggle through, will relate here.
Last Spring I caught a throat infection. I tried over the counter medication - the usually cold medicine and sore throat lozengers; didn't work. Off to the doctor I went. I sit there as he looks in my mouth and then feels for swelling in my throat, when I hear, "You have a lump in your neck. Quite a big lump."
I'm pretty sure my heart skipped a few beats. I had to get him to repeat the words he said after that. It was like you see in the movies; all I kept hearing was "You have a lump . . . you have a lump . . ."
To back pedal for a minute, I have quite a heavy loaded family history of cancer. The feeling that came over me when I heard that word was like no feeling I've ever experienced in my life.
25 years old. Sure I had finished school, but I wasn't happy with the resulting job, I had debt to be paid off, a possibility of future children and a life long dream of becoming a photographer to yet fulfill. I was devastated at the possibility that I would have a major health crisis to deal with.
So I walked out of the doctor's office and had to look at Vic and tell him that not only did I have a throat infection, but it had the possibility of being something much larger.
At first I was met with silence; then worry, which quickly turned into a positive outlook.
I went through an ENT appointment, ultrasound, ENT appointment, ultrasound/biopsy and another ENT appointment to find out that yes there was indeed a lump, but as of right now it wasn't cancer. Cloud 9 was surpassed that day.
This ordeal sent me into overdrive. I started setting goals for myself. I've always had goals, but rarely set time lines for them. This time there was no option of failure. I started living my life so that if I were ever to be put in a similar situation again, I wouldn't automatically run through all of the things I wished I done and all of the time I had wasted.
As you can see from prior posts, I have quite the list of goals going for me right now and I can proudly say that I am plowing my way through that list.
The success I've had hasn't come without a lot of hard work, dedication, sometimes a lot of sweat and tears or most importantly inspiration.
I look my inspiration in the face every single morning, afternoon and night. I live with him, share my life and dreams with him, but also all of the pain, heartache and bad days. He's my rock; my 'go to.'. On the rare days I just want to say 'F--- this!' - I think of him. I think of his willpower, determination, struggles, success and love. I push through not because I'm afraid of disappointing him, but because I want him to feel even just a little of the pride I feel when I look at him.
This ordeal sent me into overdrive. I started setting goals for myself. I've always had goals, but rarely set time lines for them. This time there was no option of failure. I started living my life so that if I were ever to be put in a similar situation again, I wouldn't automatically run through all of the things I wished I done and all of the time I had wasted.
As you can see from prior posts, I have quite the list of goals going for me right now and I can proudly say that I am plowing my way through that list.
The success I've had hasn't come without a lot of hard work, dedication, sometimes a lot of sweat and tears or most importantly inspiration.
I look my inspiration in the face every single morning, afternoon and night. I live with him, share my life and dreams with him, but also all of the pain, heartache and bad days. He's my rock; my 'go to.'. On the rare days I just want to say 'F--- this!' - I think of him. I think of his willpower, determination, struggles, success and love. I push through not because I'm afraid of disappointing him, but because I want him to feel even just a little of the pride I feel when I look at him.
Excerpt from a very touching song 'I'm Gonna Love You Through It.'
She said, "I don't think I can do this anymore"
He took her in his arms and said "That's what my love is for"
When you’re weak, I’ll be strong
When you let go, I’ll hold on
When you need to cry, I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes
When you feel lost and scared to death,
Like you can’t take one more step
Just take my hand, together we can do it
I’m gonna love you through it.
My wish for you all is that you not have an easy life with nothing but smooth sailing, but instead that you have that person in your life that will help you get through the life you are blessed with and who will brave the storm of seas you do get to sail. If you are as grateful as I am to have found that someone, hang on with dear life and return every smile, every kind word, every second of patience and especially every ounce of love that you are given. I am truly the richest person I know.
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